Less Lele

... just got a text from one of my very close friends in Atlanta and that's what it said. In April I left Atlanta to come back up north to Delaware/Maryland for a job. I loved living in Atlanta. So much to do, so many people, but career wise things just were not working. I had moved down there right after graduation, but I had no job and I was sleeping on the couch in my friends tiny one bedroom apartment. After some serious grinding on the job search I started working 2 jobs and making just enough to get by. When the holidays came I couldn't even go see my family because of work. My first and LAST Christmas spent alone. But all that being said, I had a great time down there and kind of fell in love with the city, and have no regrets. I don't even regret Harry, but that's a whole other topic in itself Now I'm back in Dela-where? and all I can do is think about what I could be doing in the "A". I know moving home was the right thing, but I sure do ...

A week of liquids and mushies and only down 4? I can't complain because it is definitly better than gaining, but I was hoping to start with a little more of a bang ya know? So no complaint's here just more focus! Really glad I did the test because I can really tell the difference. Mainly because when my pouch is working if I do not have a meal every 4 hours I am STARVING, and I'm not talking about that mental thing. I'm mean stomach pains, growling , almost dizzy type of hunger. So I really need to work on planning out my days out ahead of time. Also on getting in more exercise! As for the weekend... HOT HOT HOT! I thought I was going to pass out on U St. All that sun and no shade, I was way to close to being in hell. And too hot to find my future husband. Maybe next year...

So excited! Just found out I'll be spending my weekend at Carnival in D.C. Now for those of you who don't know about carnival let me explain. In the West Indies and Caribbean Carnival is an annual celebration... or just a big ole' party. There's costumes, music, dancing, parades, and anything fun. Kinda like an island version of Mardi Gras. And island men like their women thick so hopefully I can pull me a ma out of this weekend too! No alcohol though... wait. Who am I kidding. I won't say no alcohol but I will use moderation. I promise! Speaking of moderation, I really think the pouch test thing worked. Today I was eating tuna and and for the first time in a while I felt some restriction. Shows how going back to the basics can really help. Can't wait to hopeon that scale tomorrow!

316 #that is all. I really dont want to say too much about that number, just that it is what it is and it will be gone soon. Goal is by end of Summer. As for the pouch test. This liquid only think is for the birds. I hated it after surgery and I hate it today. Im also terrible at getting in the right amounts of all the things I'm supposed to be keeping track of. But whatever, Hopefully Fridays report will be more positive

I need serious help. I know I'm a terrible writer but I need to keep up with this blog thing, and for some reason reading blogs and LBT are very important factors when it comes to me staying on track. I was banded a year and a half ago and I feel as though I never had surgery at all. Tomorrow I start a 5 day pouch test and it better work. Hopefully I can get some exercise in too. Who knows. Like I said... I need help and I'm in desperate need of accountability. If anyone is willing to help me in that area or knows of someone who can... PLEASE LET ME KNOW. Because I'm out of control... -I eat whatever -I drink whenever -I haven't exercised in 3 months -My pre-band pants fit (o_O) I hate too make excuses but the past year has been a rollercoaster. Graduating, unemployed, no insurance, new job, moving, commuting, and so much more. Lets hope I can get this thing crackin!