Less Lele

...non scale that is. So today is my senior ball, its kinda like prom but for big kids I didn't feel like going out and looking for a gown, so I got my debutaunte gown altered... and it fit! I am officially the size I was in high school... and maybe a little smaller. Later on I found a dress graduation and tried on the size 22. Way too big! I was sooooo geeked. So I went and grabbed a 20 and it fit... loosely! I was to hype! And the drees is uber cute too. yay me!

I'm loving how no one told there was a huge spelling error in my last title. Thats ok though, go ahead and let me be illiterate! So my homegirl Lauryn sent me a link to the a supplement that apparently works great of a lot of wom en out there called Dime Curves . I'm not a big fan of this kind of thing, HOWEVER I have always wanted a butt! I'm a big girl and my chest very well proportioned but my other end just didn't seem to get the memo. My hope is that as I lose weight the ass that I've always wanted magically appears and I won't have to resort to alternative methods such as this!

So I only have one regret in my life and it keeps coming back to bite me in the ass... I hate it!

Decided to do one of those random 25 facts lists.... so here they are: 1) I love to sing 2) I can't imagine myself even being a grown-up 3) In high school the only reason I was a "good kid" is because I was scared of my mom 4) I trust people way too easily 5) I have always wanted to be gifted in one of the fine arts. Especially when I was younger, I KNEW I was gonna be the next Debbie Allen! 6) Shopping makes me happy 7) Serious books are boring 8) Death terrifies me 9) I'm completely unrealistic when it comes to love and relationships. Pretty much a hopeless romantic. 10) Even though I rarely (if ever) admit it, my roomate is one one of my best friends 11) Subliminally, I think everyone is judging me. 12) I hate when people tell me I'm not fat I'm just a big girl... I'm fat! 13) I've only seriously dated one guy ever... and I'm friggin 22! 14) I always for get either lotion, to brush my teeth, or deodorant... 15) I'm obsessed with handbags. ...

It's been a while... but things are going so slow! I know I won't get hardly any restriction until my first fill but geez... I feel like I can eat the same way I could pre-op. I am making some changes that I think will make the difference. I eat 3 meals and 3 snacks and I got a membership at the YMCA yesterday. Im bout to get my slim on! Next month I have made arrangements to be in New Orleans for Mardi Gras!!! Im going with with two of my favorite people and I plan on finding me a fine Creole man... dark and sexy! So I've also realized that Im so not following my correctly so prayers are also really welcome!

Happy new year! I would have posted sooner but my new year was sp terrible I didn't what to relive the moment or pretend to rejoyce about it. However, I still see good things coming out of the next 12 months. Main resolution is DISCIPLINE. Im going to learn to get rid of some of my old terrible habits and teach myself that I can't get everything that I want and that its okay to want for things. Also, I will get in some excercise this semester. I was doin great last year and this past semester I completely fell off. No good! Im getting back in stride if it kills me...

Today was pretty great. Got the luggage that I desperately needed, saw lots of family, and slept. Had my first major temptation though... my mom made bacon. I love bacon. I had to go upstairs and go in my room because the aroma was so over whelming. I can't wait until I can eat solids again! Seeing all my step siblings was also kind of interesting because today I realized I am the only one who is single. Even my incarcerated brother has someone waiting for him. I'm okay with being single at this point in my life I just feel kinda left out especially when we're all together. Hopefully next Christmas I'll bring someone home too... Oh yea, I finally weighed myself today... 14 pounds!!!! yay me!