Less Lele

Decided to do one of those random 25 facts lists.... so here they are: 1) I love to sing 2) I can't imagine myself even being a grown-up 3) In high school the only reason I was a "good kid" is because I was scared of my mom 4) I trust people way too easily 5) I have always wanted to be gifted in one of the fine arts. Especially when I was younger, I KNEW I was gonna be the next Debbie Allen! 6) Shopping makes me happy 7) Serious books are boring 8) Death terrifies me 9) I'm completely unrealistic when it comes to love and relationships. Pretty much a hopeless romantic. 10) Even though I rarely (if ever) admit it, my roomate is one one of my best friends 11) Subliminally, I think everyone is judging me. 12) I hate when people tell me I'm not fat I'm just a big girl... I'm fat! 13) I've only seriously dated one guy ever... and I'm friggin 22! 14) I always for get either lotion, to brush my teeth, or deodorant... 15) I'm obsessed with handbags. ...

It's been a while... but things are going so slow! I know I won't get hardly any restriction until my first fill but geez... I feel like I can eat the same way I could pre-op. I am making some changes that I think will make the difference. I eat 3 meals and 3 snacks and I got a membership at the YMCA yesterday. Im bout to get my slim on! Next month I have made arrangements to be in New Orleans for Mardi Gras!!! Im going with with two of my favorite people and I plan on finding me a fine Creole man... dark and sexy! So I've also realized that Im so not following my correctly so prayers are also really welcome!

Happy new year! I would have posted sooner but my new year was sp terrible I didn't what to relive the moment or pretend to rejoyce about it. However, I still see good things coming out of the next 12 months. Main resolution is DISCIPLINE. Im going to learn to get rid of some of my old terrible habits and teach myself that I can't get everything that I want and that its okay to want for things. Also, I will get in some excercise this semester. I was doin great last year and this past semester I completely fell off. No good! Im getting back in stride if it kills me...

Today was pretty great. Got the luggage that I desperately needed, saw lots of family, and slept. Had my first major temptation though... my mom made bacon. I love bacon. I had to go upstairs and go in my room because the aroma was so over whelming. I can't wait until I can eat solids again! Seeing all my step siblings was also kind of interesting because today I realized I am the only one who is single. Even my incarcerated brother has someone waiting for him. I'm okay with being single at this point in my life I just feel kinda left out especially when we're all together. Hopefully next Christmas I'll bring someone home too... Oh yea, I finally weighed myself today... 14 pounds!!!! yay me!

According to the Body Mass Index (BMI) a person is obese if their BMI is over 30. The 40-50 range makes a person morbidly obese, and once 50 is surpassed a person becomes “SUPER morbidly obese”. Six months ago I was less than half a point from belong super morbidly obese. I have always been a big girl but never did I think I was that bad. My health is great, I know I’m a good looking girl, but according the this I am in the same category of the those people who cant leave their beds and who fire departments in order to leave their home. Never did I think I was that close to being in that condition it really is a reality check. After that sobering moment I decided to go exercise via shopping and do some retail therapy. Im tired of being stuck in the house so I think getting out will help with my mood. Maybe I’ll find something for myself as well. Oh yea… I decided that I’m going to do a daily random… might be a pic, might me a joke, or a link. Just something to keep me enter...

My first day alone and boy am I bored! Im home for 3 weeks, not working, and I can't drive... ugh! I never relaized how bad a need a hobby until this very second! I could be doing several other things, but in comparison being a bum is way more fun! Study for the GMAT?... nah. Clean?... nah how bout messgae boards and blogs.... ding ding ding. As for my recovery... yesterday was my first day of full liquids. Full liquids which I will be consuming exclusively for a month. And by liquid I mean pure liquids, not bits and pieces of anything. Luckily its a big step up from the strict clear liquid diet I was on for 5 days. Nothing but broth, Crystal Light, and sugar free popsicle, so adding soups and protein shakes is a blessing. I also got a lot of relief yesterday. I was having a big problem figuring out the difference between being full and just being bloated like hell... yesterday cleared that up for me real good. The amount of anything I consume is drastically reduced and...

It has been a while since I posted to this blog and a few days ago I made a HUGE life change. On Thursday December 18th I got the Realize gastric band put in. After a lot of thinking and self evaluation I thought that it was the best solution to my weight problem. Back in June I went to an info session and then began my journey to medical clearance, several doctors appointments and well over $1,000 in co-pays later here I am... BANDED! It took me a while to decide on the band because I thought of it as an easy solution, but boy was I wrong. The diet Im on is like none other. For the next month its liquids only, and mush for another month thereafter. Willpower is the only thing I can think of that's getting me through. That and learning to listen to my body. My current battle consists of discerning between hunger pains and gas... any suggestions?