on a short leash

After sitting in traffic for 3... yes 3... hours, I finally made i to my fill appointment 30 minutes late. Luckily they are always running behind and I was still able to get in. Instead of my usually foreign handsome P.A., the nurse practitioner saw me and decided to give me a stern talking to. Once she realized I haven't had any fills or check ups since last June she made sure to remind me of my arch nemesis carbohydrates.

Not that she was telling me anything I didn't already know, but it's always different when someone gives you that conviction. So after my fill she said I need to come back in 2 weeks. Due to my year long hiatus I need to be kept "on a short leash". Im totally ok with that. thus far I have been out of control and I really do need some kind of accountability. Liz has been trying to help me with that and I love her for it. Im just the worse when it comes to follow through!!!

In non band related news, this summer is not going at all how I thought it would. For one, now that I have a real job I really don't get the same feeling I used to get when summer came around. No freedom, too man of these life obligations. Luckily though, I don't hate my job. It's actually kinda nice. For the first time Im working for a company that seems to care. They're flexible with my schedule, very relaxed with my time off, and I think I have a lot of autonomy when it comes to my work load. I'd almost say I'm happy.

What do i think is holding me back? The fact that I am extremely unorganized. I still haven't found time to work out and I really need to. Not only to help with my weight loss, but because working out makes me feel so much better on a daily basis. I also have yet to find a place to stay in Maryland so Im spending a TON of money on gas.

I decided to make a few goals for the remainder of the summer:

-post what I eat EVERYDAY w/protein and carbs

- get in 30 minutes of some kind of activity 3 days a week

-STAY ON BUDGET

let's see how it goes...